Evening Ramblings about Love and Life
In 11 days, I will be married to my husband for 5 years and we will be together a total of 6 years. If you have been married or are married, you will understand me when I say, marriage isn’t easy and takes a lot of work and lot of maturity.
My eldest daughter is embarking on her first actual big breakup and I feel for her but she is young and she will spring back even though it may not feel like it.
Love is work, you got to put up with another person’s shit including all their flaws and stupid mistakes. But if you are still there at the end of the day, you know you have something magical deep down inside of yourself and you realize that maybe this thing called life isn’t so bad after all.
Love is spirit and flow, it ebbs and wanes just like the moon mother’s magic. It’s heartbreaking and heart filling. You feel it from the tips of your toes to the top of your head. It makes you jubilant, it makes you sad, it makes you mad, but I wouldn’t turn my back on it for the world.
For my close friends and family who know my hubby and I, they know that we had our own hiccups and we still do but in the end it all remains the same. He is meant to be with me and I am meant to be with him.
We just laid in bed the other night in each other’s arms and I remember laying there with his head on my chest and his arms around me and I had never before felt such peace and oneness with the universe and all the shit we have been through just doesn’t seem to matter much anymore. It’s life and it happens whether we want it to or not.
I guess what I’m trying to say is don’t sweat the negatives because if you really think about it, the positives definitely outweigh them. So each day, I try to make it a point to say I love you to my man and give him a kiss even when I”m pissed as hell at him because you never know when they won’t be here anymore.
Life is too short to measure the negatives with the positives. Just let it flow and embrace it with all its chaos. Because within chaos, there is balance.
As always, I remain Earthwindwalker.